Well, it's going to be a busy week, I have a booth at a festival this weekend and I have to package a whole lotta tea to sell. That being said, I still have to go to work and stick with my committment to make headway with my health goals.
I know what I need to do to be healthy, and so I'm just trying to add good habits by the handful. Just whatever I can manage. Like taking my multivitamin everyday, eating more raw food, avoiding refined foods (SUGAR!!)...just a little bit of refined sugar will send me over the edge...it really is an addictive chemical. I've been doing really well in avoiding it, favouring natural sugars instead. I've deemed evaporated cane sugar to be okay, since it's not refined and devoid of nutrients. Also, I can have some of it and NOT have it trigger a binge, unlike refined sugar!
So, I just did pilates. That is coming along very well, as I've noticed my strength in that area increasing. I hope to make it to the gym in the morning for the yoga class at 9:15. That's the plan anyway! I still haven't been able to motivate myself to get back into running. All in good time I s'pose. I've been taking that time to spend with my dogs instead, for which I'm sure they are grateful!
Right now, I'm going to go outside and say some prayers, offer tobacco to my sacred friends and family, and feel gratitude for the many gifts I've received!
I am grateful for the opportunity to own a herb farm:)
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Journal Entry for August 10, 2008 Sunday, August 10, 2008
A counsellor I saw in high school gave me this excerpt from a Marianne Williamson book, and it helped me a great deal. I remember not being overly impressed with the "God images". But it all makes sense to me now!
When I read the journal entries of friends, I feel bad that I seem to be doing so well right now. And then I remember, "hey - I've been there too"...
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented,and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so
that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other
people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others."
"Authored and published by Marianne Williamson"
When I read the journal entries of friends, I feel bad that I seem to be doing so well right now. And then I remember, "hey - I've been there too"...
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented,and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so
that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other
people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others."
"Authored and published by Marianne Williamson"
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Last day of July... Thursday, July 31, 2008
Today was a pretty good day. I didn't accomplish much, but I'm used to that - I often schedule more tasks than I have time or ambition for!
I'm going to bed in a few minutes, it's 9 pm, Sunset. It's a beautiful smatter of pinks and magentas against a pale blue grey...gorgeous, as always. I'm hoping that if I get to bed early, I'll get up with the sun. I want to give my body the rest that it requires as my brain forges new neural pathways as I learn to expand my consciousness. I've become a pretty darn good manifester, and I want to continue on this path of spiritual rebirth.
I ate mostly raw foods today, and I was able to avoid having more than one coffee, and I didn't have any pastries (not even a taste) which is truly hard when I work at the cafe!! I made up a new drink today, a strawberry lemonade chiller...I think it should be the drink special for the rest of the summer:)
I am grateful to have a job where I can be creative and express myself.
I am grateful to have learned so much from my friends
I'm going to bed in a few minutes, it's 9 pm, Sunset. It's a beautiful smatter of pinks and magentas against a pale blue grey...gorgeous, as always. I'm hoping that if I get to bed early, I'll get up with the sun. I want to give my body the rest that it requires as my brain forges new neural pathways as I learn to expand my consciousness. I've become a pretty darn good manifester, and I want to continue on this path of spiritual rebirth.
I ate mostly raw foods today, and I was able to avoid having more than one coffee, and I didn't have any pastries (not even a taste) which is truly hard when I work at the cafe!! I made up a new drink today, a strawberry lemonade chiller...I think it should be the drink special for the rest of the summer:)
I am grateful to have a job where I can be creative and express myself.
I am grateful to have learned so much from my friends
Monday, July 28, 2008
Almost August
So...it's been about two weeks now since I've run! My original goal was to learn to run 10k, but their has been some big shifts happening in my life, and consistency, the very key to making big changes has been lacking in me , obviously. I'm not upset about this, I've just decided to change my goal to 5 k. I'm almost there, and I think I can definitely achieve this by the finish date that I set for myself.
In focusing so much on spiritual endeavours, I've scattered myself a bit. I must remember the physical, and that I still need to balance life in this cultural paradigm with REAL life. For example, I forgot to renew my car insurance (!)and my plate sticker this year! It's actually rather funny, and I realized it, and planned to go and sort things out this week. Last night however, when I was leaving my mother's place, a cop was on the road behind me and noticed my sticker. Then he noticed my pink slip had expired. So, he went back to his cruiser and tried to check out my insurance status. While he was doing that, I grabbed some tobacco, and prayed to the Great Spirit, and my Spirit Guides and Guardians to reveal the compassion and leniency in this situation (driving without insurance is a $5000 fine!) I released the tobacco out my car window, and then a wind-born seed floated into my car, and drifted gently out again. At that point, I knew that they were on the case!
A few minutes passed, and the officer came back. He was unable to check on my insurance status (darn computers) but issued me a ticket for $110 for the outdated plate sticker. I'm going to take it to court, only because I know that the Canadian Justice System is backed up for months, and it will give me time to figure out where that money will come from.
Hehehe...I don't really care! Normally, an event such as this would have sent me into a spiral of self-hatred, and then probably a binge to numb the pain...but now it just made me realize my need for focus, and a need to pull in my resources from the universe. I know that I am taken care of - I have a lot of very worthy friends on the other side, and even a couple here on earth:) Taking better care of my 'paperwork' will be effortless, cuz I said so!
Life, afterall, is all about choices...
Namaste
In focusing so much on spiritual endeavours, I've scattered myself a bit. I must remember the physical, and that I still need to balance life in this cultural paradigm with REAL life. For example, I forgot to renew my car insurance (!)and my plate sticker this year! It's actually rather funny, and I realized it, and planned to go and sort things out this week. Last night however, when I was leaving my mother's place, a cop was on the road behind me and noticed my sticker. Then he noticed my pink slip had expired. So, he went back to his cruiser and tried to check out my insurance status. While he was doing that, I grabbed some tobacco, and prayed to the Great Spirit, and my Spirit Guides and Guardians to reveal the compassion and leniency in this situation (driving without insurance is a $5000 fine!) I released the tobacco out my car window, and then a wind-born seed floated into my car, and drifted gently out again. At that point, I knew that they were on the case!
A few minutes passed, and the officer came back. He was unable to check on my insurance status (darn computers) but issued me a ticket for $110 for the outdated plate sticker. I'm going to take it to court, only because I know that the Canadian Justice System is backed up for months, and it will give me time to figure out where that money will come from.
Hehehe...I don't really care! Normally, an event such as this would have sent me into a spiral of self-hatred, and then probably a binge to numb the pain...but now it just made me realize my need for focus, and a need to pull in my resources from the universe. I know that I am taken care of - I have a lot of very worthy friends on the other side, and even a couple here on earth:) Taking better care of my 'paperwork' will be effortless, cuz I said so!
Life, afterall, is all about choices...
Namaste
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Oh my stars
Ran 3.5 km's in just over 30 minutes yesterday...I've been off for about a week, cuz I took it a little too hardcore last week and buggered my back. So, in the last week I've been doing yoga and lower back pilates to restore function to my back. I'm going to focus on consistency and time to build up my speed and distance - live & learn!
I'm off to the gym, and then to harvest some herbs, or vice versa. I'm going to miss a couple of prime medicinals if I don't harvest them soon. As for the gym, it's a strength train day, though I may decide to run for a few minutes, just to get used to the idea.
I'm off to the gym, and then to harvest some herbs, or vice versa. I'm going to miss a couple of prime medicinals if I don't harvest them soon. As for the gym, it's a strength train day, though I may decide to run for a few minutes, just to get used to the idea.
Monday, July 7, 2008
Running update/Buddha knows
Just got in from trail running, boy is it ever hot out there already! I ran for 2 minutes, walked 1, repeated cycle 8 times. I walked for 5 min. before, and for about 15 minutes after. Don't know what that amounts to in km's, don't care right now. Since it's so bloody hot today, I think I'm going to stick around the house and catch up on invoicing etc. Maybe take the dogs for a swim later in the afternoon.
It's just after 10 am, I did wake up a half hour earlier than usual again today, even though I stayed up too late last nite. I plan to hit the gym as soon as they open tomorrow (well, maybe not right at 6:30, it'll likely be 7!) and I'm thinking I'm gonna start running everyday, provided my body can cope with it! I feel that it would be beneficial to do yoga on a daily basis too, to keep my muscles relaxed and fluid. It is time for me to achieve my goals, I've been too easy on myself, and too hard on myself at the same time. Life is meant to be joyful, believe it or not. It can be effortless and enjoyable to be active and disciplined. It's all in the mindset that you create your world from!
In high school, I had a history teacher who showed us movies for most of the semester. Best class ever!! But one image that has always stuck with me is from a movie where Keanu Reeves plays Siddartha(!) I think it's called Little Buddha, but it may be called Siddartha. Anyway, at some point in the movie, he is standing in the river, and it occurs to him that: "If the string is too tight it will break, if the string is too loose it won't play." D'uh! Such an epiphany really - it is not about being too strict, and it is not about having no restrictions. It is about finding a perfect balance of tension that allows the perfect vibration to carry out when the string is plucked. I am that string!
It's just after 10 am, I did wake up a half hour earlier than usual again today, even though I stayed up too late last nite. I plan to hit the gym as soon as they open tomorrow (well, maybe not right at 6:30, it'll likely be 7!) and I'm thinking I'm gonna start running everyday, provided my body can cope with it! I feel that it would be beneficial to do yoga on a daily basis too, to keep my muscles relaxed and fluid. It is time for me to achieve my goals, I've been too easy on myself, and too hard on myself at the same time. Life is meant to be joyful, believe it or not. It can be effortless and enjoyable to be active and disciplined. It's all in the mindset that you create your world from!
In high school, I had a history teacher who showed us movies for most of the semester. Best class ever!! But one image that has always stuck with me is from a movie where Keanu Reeves plays Siddartha(!) I think it's called Little Buddha, but it may be called Siddartha. Anyway, at some point in the movie, he is standing in the river, and it occurs to him that: "If the string is too tight it will break, if the string is too loose it won't play." D'uh! Such an epiphany really - it is not about being too strict, and it is not about having no restrictions. It is about finding a perfect balance of tension that allows the perfect vibration to carry out when the string is plucked. I am that string!
Friday, July 4, 2008
FREEDOM
I'm still struggling with the diet mentality. Every now and then I still find myself starting the plans for a diet of some sort, or a time period or restriction, yadda yadda yadda. But, as I continually shift my consciousness from my head to my heart, I am finding that my vibrational level is increasing and the changes are becoming more effortless. Ahhhhh....:)
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